Following the Yellow Brick Road

by Ashleigh James / Jun 12, 2015 / Comments

I have always been fortunate. I have travelled, lived in some beautiful countries and had the chance to meet amazing people. I'm extremely grateful for the many wonderful experiences and opportunities I've had.

However, I felt as though I was just going through the motions. Why was there still a hole in my life? I figured that the answer I was looking for came down to this; "Who was I and what did I truly want in life?"

So one day I sat down and made a list of everything I wanted, then another list of everything I was proud of about myself. I didn't know how I was going to get there but I had made a start. I had put the ball in motion.

Above all else, this was at the top of the list as it was the most important thing (and still is);

I want a career that makes a positive impact. I want to inspire people, to encourage them to trust their inner voice and realize their own true worth and potential.

I realized this passion during my past career as an Esthiology Instructor, when a graduating student expressed to me that the previous 7 months had been much more valuable than an education in Esthetics. It had given her self confidence and she'd started to develop as a young women. She thanked me and I cried.

I don't think I had ever experienced such a full feeling in my heart before. Something I'd done had helped someone in a way I wasn't even aware of.

After this, I took some time off and tried to put things into perspective and hopefully find a new, fulfilling career. I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared. My future was unclear and it left an uneasy feeling at the pit of my stomach.

Fortunately having savings made it easier. Plus, I would write positive messages and put them on my fridge. In moments of despair, I would look at them and they helped lift me.

I will find a career path I love.

Shortly after, I discovered Network Marketing. The company was in health and wellness, the products were amazing, I could be my own boss, it had a fantastic compensation plan and I'd heard the industry was great for personal development. Sign me up!

I emerged myself in the training and had a fantastic mentor. I was beginning to feel inspired, yet I still didn't get that "full" feeling. I decided to carry on in hopes that it would come.

I took my mentors advice and started up a Public Figure page on Facebook with intent to post 80% inspirational, personal, funny quotes and videos, and 20% business posts. Although at first I felt silly, I trusted in the process and thought it would be a fantastic way to step out of my comfort zone and a start caring less about people's opinions of me.

I was enjoying it but Network Marketing isn't easy in the beginning and I struggled. So I took on a part time position at a gym to earn some extra money while I was getting started, which turned out to be a fantastic decision. I had never worked at a place where everyone supported each other and went out of their way to help one another.

That, alongside the support I received in Toastmasters (improving my public speaking), developed my confidence quickly which then transferred to other aspects of my life.

My social media posts, videos and articles truly reflected (and still do) what I was going through in my personal development. It was my hopes to show people that if I could do it, then anyone could.

It wasn't until I started to receive messages and comments on my content that I realized I had already found my passion.

Through being vulnerable, real and opening up so publicly, it had resonated and inspired people.

That full feeling in my chest was back!

The more I engaged in deep conversations about our struggles or our life goals, the more people began to open up to me.

Finally I was feeling like my life had meaning. However, my decision to start up my own business was tough. My own insecurities, issues and self doubt would creep up on me and I'd have days, sometimes weeks where I was unsure if I was doing the right thing. I was letting depression win.

I'd ask myself, "Isn't it about time you stopped messing around and found a stable, well paying job like everyone else?" But something inside of me burned... a knowing that I was on the right path. How could I not be if it felt so good?

I decided to be more mindful of my thoughts, surround myself with people who believed in me and make sure I was taking time out for myself. And I carried on.

I was on a mission to discover my true self and in turn discovered my life mission;

To inspire those willing and ready;
- To look within and change any beliefs or thought patterns that no longer serve them.
- To seek out their own weaknesses, and work on them.
- To become aware of their fears, and face them.
- To get to know themselves, and love who they are… even the negative parts.
- To follow their dreams, their heart and their passion - even volunteering or finding a hobby.
- To step out of their comfort zone and develop their confidence.
- To be self reliant, instead of looking to others to provide them with happiness.
- To put themselves first, and know their own worth.
- To speak their truth.

Continuing to live by this is the most challenging thing I have EVER done but it has lead me to something which has given my life more purpose than I could have dreamed.

This path isn't for the fainthearted and I now know the road isn't paved with roses. Yet I must stay true to myself, continue on this journey and apologize for any mistakes I may make along the way.

That little voice inside already knows what you want. You just have to listen close enough.

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The Contributor

Ashleigh James


Ashleigh has a strong background in business development, therapies and education within the health and wellness industry. She has been fortunate to work in the UK, Bermuda and Canada.

These fantastic opportunities have helped develop who she is, yet made her question what she wanted in her life. She considers this 'looking within' to be a catalyst for her awakening.

On her journey, she is working on herself by identifying insecurities and issues, particularly around self-worth, and learning to change her response to them.
She believes that this process raises her consciousness as she sheds old programming and belief systems.

Ashleigh feels this continuous personal evolution is part of the global shift in human consciousness.

She'd like to connect with anyone who feels this change and understands the potential we hold to help create a new reality.

Ashleigh is also the Owner/Editor of GEM Magazine.